Welcome to my Rollercoaster!

So we met the surgeon on Wednesday.   Both Gordon and I felt good about her.  She has been doing this for 25 years.  She told us all the possibilities.  If the tumor is aggressive all bets are off and chemo is on the table.  If it is not then surgery and radiation will do the trick.  But.... there are some problems.  I have a family history that is not so good.  My grandmother and my aunt both had breast cancer and 5 years later it metathesized into bone cancer and they passed.  My uncle had the bone cancer and he died too.  My father and his mother had pancreatic cancer.  Surprisingly enough she said that the pancreatic cancer was in the same family as breast cancer.  So basically I have this beast on both sides.  She did the genetic test for the mutation but said that my chance for reoccurring could be as high as 65%.  She said we need to consider full mastectomy.  But no results on the biopsy mean we wait.  Oh, and just to keep us busy she ordered and MRI of my breast too.  (let me tell you - not fun)

Fast forward to today.  She finally called.  Great news, the tumor is nothing!  Not aggressive, no receptors and looks like a non event.  But (wait for it) the MRI was not so good.  they found a large area of enhancement deep in my breast.  She thinks it is DCIS - Ductal Carcinoma In Situ.  Basically it is commonly found with Padgets and is unorganized cancer cells.  They are not aggressive or quick to spread so the treatment is full mastectomy.  No radiation or chemo needed after!  Can you see the roller coaster going up?
Time to go down again.  We have to be sure because this could still be an aggressive cancer so back to biopsy!  This time in the MRI machine.  Oh and did I mention the wrinkle?  There is a small area of enhancement in the right breast too so they will biopsy both.  I am a pin cushion. If I knew how to add emoticons here there would be a sad face here.  Oh and they can't scheduled it till the 17th cause they only do them 1 day a week and that is the first opening.  So now we wait again to know what this is and what to do.  Meanwhile I wonder what it will feel like to lose both breasts and be a pear.

I am grateful for such good friends.  I am constantly reminded I am not alone.  I am grateful for the gospel that shows me where the roller coaster is going so I am not so afraid of the corners and hills.   I am trying to teach my kids that you can do anything if you hold onto that. 
The big picture is good.  I caught this early and we just need to get all the info and make the right decision about surgery.  Possibly be done after that.  I just need to hold on till we get around the next corner and hill.