Today was hard for me. They have set the stone on Joshua's grave and he chose to have his sister Micah's name beside his. It is the first time we have been able to remember her on her birthday. I have always regretted that we did not choose burial and had no place to go for her. We took flowers, white for both and a few sprigs of blue for Joshua and pink for her on her birthday. I took the small teddy bear we were given when she was born at the hospital. I gave it back to her today. I miss them both but rejoice that they are together. As we took pictures I thought that my children were all close together today. How bittersweet it was to be there. It was good to do this and feel that we had finally finished all the things we needed to for Joshua. I truly know he is at peace and with his sister. I am so grateful for this knowledge, it carries me on hard days.
We are happy, we look for joy in all we do daily. I have completed a memory wall in our front room with pictures and memory items for Joshua. Anyone who would like to see it is welcome to come by anytime. I want to tell you that things are great but we are still sad so much. Going to the cematary today broke my heart but felt like the right thing to do. I feel like Micah is finally resting and at peace. It makes me so happy to think of the two of them together.
We love you all and are so grateful for the continued support as we navigate this confusing road. I hope you don't mind a few pictures.
