Highs and Plateaus

     Well I am not sure what to say today.  So much has happened but nothing has changed.  We have had some really high moments in the last several weeks.  We went on a helicopter ride and horseback riding and even got to ride in a side car with the coolest bikers ever to Antelope Island.  We have been to 2 more temples to do baptisms (Logan and Provo City Center).  We loved everything we have done and it has been amazing.  The highlight for Josh was a visit from a member of the seventy, for our friends that don't belong to our church that is a general authority.  He was sent by our prophet to visit our family and Joshua.  As a mother I can only say I am proud because I could see how impressed he was with Joshua and his love of the gospel.  It was a powerful visit and we were left with a strong sense of love and support from our church.  He gave Josh and Gordon and Ted ties.  They are a solid color and have what appear to be dots on them.  When you look closer they have panda bears all over them.  Elder Sabin says no one can be unhappy with a panda.
     On the other side of the coin we are unchanged healthwise.  He is very tired and confused sometimes.  He is just going day by day.  We have increased his medicine to help with some pain he is having.  His legs hurt at night and he is getting more anxious so we added meds to help with both and he is doing well.
     I sometimes wonder as his mother about the purpose of this time.  I don't want him to suffer and I know he is ready but I see the work he is doing here now.  He rarely goes anywhere without touching someone.  I see that others still need him and so do we so I am grateful for this time.  I am grateful for the tender mercies of the Lord, I see how all this is all working for a purpose so I am trying to be patient and see where it leads us.  We are sooo grateful for the friends we are making and have already around us.  We have been getting letters and gifts for Josh from around the world from our wonderful biker friends and they make me cry.  Josh loves it and in the end that is all that really matters.  Please go hug your families and do something they want to do that you think you don't have time for.  As Josh would say - Have At It!