The Final Answer

We got the news we already knew.  The pathology is a Glioblastoma Multiforme 4.  That is the most aggressive tumor there is.  Sadly we were told that they have proof that the tumor was caused by the radiation he had 8 years ago.  The double whammy was that they did another MRI this week and the tumor is almost as big as before surgery and it looks like it is pushing the brain out of its normal location too.  That means it is fast growing and even more aggressive than normal.  With this information they are thinking 90 days is top of how long he has.   The doctors suggested radiation as a possible treatment.  We went to the appointment with the radiation oncologist thinking that was a route to try.  However we have prayed and it doesn't look like we are going that way.  It was so hard on Josh the first time and he doesn't want to do it again.  Also it is a six week commitment every day and if it only buys him 2 months what was the point.  The biggest factor is that Josh is so tired already we just don't think he could handle it.  If this treatment could offer a cure or even promise a reasonable amount of time we would do it but there is no guarantee that we will get anything and the cost is high. 
I am very calm and peaceful.  It doesn't mean I am not losing it, I showed up at a friend's house and cried for 40 minutes.  What it means is that I am confident that Heavenly Father is in charge.  We will trust him and enjoy every day.

On to better news.  Tonight Joshua was honored by the Boy Scouts!  They have a dinner called the Gathering of Eagles and we attended and the council recognized him and presented him with an award.  They are sending a scout that could not afford camp on their own to camp in Joshua's name.   They told his story and when they were done the people who attended the dinner (about 200) spontaneously gave him a standing ovation.  Seeing others recognize him was so wonderful!  We managed to surprise him and it was great to see him blush and smile.  After the event people could not wait to shake his hand and tell him they thought he was amazing.  A couple even wanted pictures!  It was a good day and we spent it as a family.  We want more of those for sure but this one will last for a while it was so fun.

I would ask you to keep smiling, have fun, and remember what is important.  We are enjoying every minute we have and are greatful to have them.  We love you and appreciate the support.   This journey is hard and so many of you are making it seem easier with your love and food, and visits.  We love you all.